Wednesday, March 26, 2008

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops.

Life's been such a hot mess. I feel like I'm in one of those drug commercials. You know the one where the guy is standing in his bedroom and everything is happening around him. He's in a daze, but somehow, life is still going on.

That's me right now.

Half the crap that's going on around me seems worthless for me to bother with. I'm barely managing to get anything worth-while done. I just want to get the fuck out of Lehigh and be done with college. I'm so over it.

I just don't care. No. Screw that. I do care. But. It's complicated??

Also what the hell is up with Lehigh being ranked #1 in the country in Accounting? Thanks a lot. That helps me so much with my Finance and SCM degree. Ugh, why do I suck at life? More importantly, why do I suck so much at accounting. I mean, there would absolutely be no question to me majoring in it, if I was good. It wouldn't phase me a bit even if I absolutely hated it. #1 ranking is still a #1 ranking. But nope. Not only do I hate it, I also suck at it. haha I guess that solves my question of ever being an accounting major. Boo on not getting my $45+ grand worth of a Lehigh business degree.

Monday, March 17, 2008

killing in the name of love.

I've just been contemplating a bunch of things. Friends. Decisions. Life. I don't know. I've just been so on edge about everything... even though there's more important things that I should be focusing on. I mean, I guess in the greater scheme of things, they're more important. But when does my sanity come before something else? But, that's just it... the stupid stuff is getting me sidetracked.

What to do? I miss my friends. Boys are lame. I'm so sick of Lehigh. I have to start eating coke sandwiches.

Uggh. just upset. about. life.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

makes us harder, faster, better, stronger.

It's been one year. And it's been terrible without you. Sometimes I'll be walking to class or laying in bed right before going to bed and you just cross my mind and I become overwhelmed with grief. Or maybe I'll see something that reminds me of us. Or when I'm shopping I'll see something I think you'd like. Or fresh flowers. That's a big one. I love you and miss you terribly. I know you're looking over me and I just hope someday that I'll be able to see you again.
RIP 3/16/07

Saturday, March 08, 2008

you're going away in late September.

Spring Break was interesting... It was especially nice since I had nothing to worry about during the week. Seriously though, it was actually a break. A real break. Thanks Lehigh. It’s the only thing you’ve done right this semester. No exams or projects to fret about.

Spring Break has taught me a lot:
  1. Pomegranate martinis consumed in large amounts are a no-no.
  2. Stick to ordering crab when dinning at a restaurant named Joe’s Crab Shack.
  3. Greek Life follows you everywhere. “I love my AOPi?”
  4. The solution to heat rashes and sunburn.,, “Just put some ice on it!!”
  5. Drunk Scrabble is probably the best game ever.
  6. Broadway is the fifth highest tourist attraction in NYC besides the Statue of Liberty.
  7. Never trust anyone with the initials A.T. with handling large glass bottles of alcohol. FAIL.
  8. Never take for granted any weather temperature over 65 degrees F.
This semester seems to be flying by so quickly. I don’t know whether I’m excited or a little sad. Let’s just make it a good one.

Until the next time.