i want to read good news, good news.

1. FINISH MY PAPER
2. PROOFREAD IT
3. PROOFREAD THREE OTHERS
4. WRITE A INTRO AND CONCLUSION
5. ADD IN TRANSITIONAL SENTENCES WHERE NECESSARY
6. MAKE A POWERPOINT
7. STUDY FOR CHINESE EXAM TOMORROW
8. STUDY FOR ENVIROSCI EXAM THURSDAY
9. GET SHITFACED ON THURSDAY, 4PM BC I DID WELL ON ALL MY ACADEMIC STUFF THIS WEEK.
10. OR GET SHITFACED TO FORGET HOW BADLY OF A FAILURE I AM.

PS: MOM 2, JESS 4!

with my friends in the new mercedes-benz.

Things to look foward too!

• GREEK WEEK! (even though I won't be able to drink)
  
• chinese essay
• chinese exam
• envirosci exam
• econ problem set
  
• bis111 project/paper/presentation thing
• theta FORMAL!
• alumnae tea party
• senior appreciation week!
  
• english final paper
• last day of classes!
• FINAL EXAMS!
  
• economics final
  
• envirosci final
  

Please call me to keep me sane. Thanks.

roll down with abandon and no understanding.

So yet again, I'm at lindy. Surprise, surprise? Anyway, today was fall07 registration, which I just barely survived. I'm waitlisted for 1 class that I need bc of the professor. lol, lame. Even more to be upset about, I'm pissed that I didn't get an A on my last econ 4o'clock. Yeah. Blergh, I should have done better than that. There's nothing worse than letting yourself down.

I've been going to bed at 2am these past days. Argh.

if it's true then tell me how it got this way.

• It's April. It snowed.
• Fall 07 registration is Tuesday. All the class I want/plan on taking are MWF. I can't make a half decent schedule. Well, either I get good teachers and have all my 5 classes on MWF with the likely possibility of an 8am-er. Or I get the bad teachers and have a more "normal" schedule. Looks like my sophomore fall semester is going to suck ass. HELLO 8AM AND 5 STRAIGHT CLASSES!
  
• I have an interview with Nordstroms on May 14th!

edit/ So yeah, I just really looked at the scheduling for next year. I'm so screwed. I can't even possibly have a schedule with the best teachers. This sucks. I seriously would do 8-4 MWF if I could have the best teachers. I don't care now. Damnit bitches.

just call me paris and hold your flash.

Call it karma or bad luck, but something's wrong. I feel my world is not in balance and I can't put my finger on why. I can't shake this feeling... it's been going for a while and it's driving me nuts. I just keep on getting fucked over/screwed etc. This is just not fair WHAT THE FUCK.

It's just rediculous. I've become so damn nice and everything this semester. Been the perfect person and stuff. But seriously everything's is just out of place. Life is just screwing me so badly. And it just sucks. On top if it... I just want to puke my brains out. And I look like shit and I like a boy.

I applied online for a job/internship this weekend at Nordstroms one at Anthropologie. I got called by Nordstroms today, she left a vm. But yeah, apparently the internship is for people entering their senior year. Which she so mentioned was 'their fault' and that I should call her. Fuck! But yeah, I guess I'll just get a sales job there. And I'm def taking courses to get ahead with my major. This summer is going to be interesting. I'm sort of excited.

Why am I dealing with this shit? Just suck it up ok. Three more years of just working your ass off, 3 more years before you're out of PA, and 3 more years before you get your dream job. And hopefully go to grad school at Upenn.

about being honest with yourself.

Let me just clarify, if you haven't noticed already. I'm not a fan of confrontation. As much as I love drama, (the thing is) I am never the one to start it. 'Cause I'm classy like that! lol So everyone who thinks I'm a bitch... yes I am, but that's only if I don't like you. And that's why I love being a girl so much besides the purses, shoes, acessories, and dresses. The way we fight is absolutely, fantastically-stellar!

I can't believe I'm dedicating a whole entire post to this. But it's gotten to a point where it's rediculous. I'm not your fucking paparazzi. If you want pictures of your ugly self (for facebook), take your own camera out. K? I seriously don't need anymore files on my laptop of you. Don't abuse the fact that I carry my camera around. I have no patience for, "Oh, take a picture of me!" Seriously.

I've got to stop drinking diet coke. blerghhh

no answers for what was asked, you're all alone.

This weekend has probably beeen one of the hardest ever. I just want to say thank you to everyone who has been so supportive and there for me. It's tough and I'm not saying it's going to get any less 'harder.' Friday, the rain made it seem like the whole world was in mourning. Saturday, I don't know what to say... it was beautiful? and that's a stretch. Can something like that... a funeral, "a celebration of that remarkable individual" ... can that even be beautiful?

People say that time heals everything, but what is there to heal if someone isn't physically in your life everyday? What do you do with that apparent gap? Where do you go to replace that feeling? What do you do when you don't have that person you love? What do you do? What do you say? What you think? What do you feel?

You feel empty. That's for sure.