weekend!!

Done with my first week of internship.

you cleaned up, found jesus, things are good.

The Purse Forum and applying for internships has taken over my life.

a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it.

summer's been fun. Though, I should have started really early in looking for an internship. But whatevs.

I was supposed to have an interview with Lucky magazine this past Wednesday, but on Tuesday the lady called me saying they hired an employee's cousin. such bullshit. Whatever, I have an interview with In Touch Weekly later this month... and have to hear back from GQ. Wish me luck!

I guess this process and/or my mom's snide comments about me only applying to magazine internships has finally got to me. Sure. Yes. If I do work at a magazine I probably won't be making as much if I was working on wall street or whatever.. But to be honest, working at a magazine seems a hell lot more appealing than watching the clickers at the NYSE go by.

What is more important? Having a closet filled with Louboutins or doing what I truly want to do? I mean. Both equals happiness. And who's to say... sure I'll start making $40,000, but I'll move up? And make more money? I mean. It'll be more fulfilling.

I guess?

what matters is that you were mine.

So I'm back in New Jersey. So happy. Done with school. Well, except that I'm taking a class over the summer. Whatever. There's so much stuff that I'm looking forward too slash have planned.

1. Get back in shape. No more beer. Or drunk snacking at 3am.
   
2. Fix my iTunes, buy an iPod.
3. Need to go to the city as much as I can and just get lost there.
   
4. SEX AND THE CITY movie!!
   
5. Weeds & Entourage season premiere
6. Start reading again
7. Fly to cali in August to visit some bitches
8. Maintain my tan
9. Play tennis
10. Improve my awesome skills at guitar hero/rock band
    

supersize the wisdom, hold the cholesterol.

Another day, attention ladies and gentlemen.... I'm one year older (and not far away from) graduating college, getting a job, moving out, and dare I say it, falling in love? haha. How lame and sentimental of me. But, you see, this is what becoming ~*19*~ has impart me with. I have become filled with wisdom. Actually, this concept is just taking a toll on my anxiety. Better not drink tonight.

I don't know, maybe my childhood or these past few years of me growing up has shaken me up. But in like 4 years or so I will be moving out on my own, paying my own bills and with much doubt, SUCCESSFULLY LEARN TO SAVE. What's up with that reality? This whole independent thing already is making me feel now, more than ever, how dependent I am to my parents.

Today, surprisingly enough was also my last day of my first job ever. I mean, yes it was only for the summer but still it was quite an experience. I think there's just stuff like this that you can't even put a price. An education can't replace that. Real life experiences, making mistakes and learning from them. And how ironic it was that on my birthday-- I learned something quite extraordinary....

Don't cheat.
Don't cheat yourself.
Don't cheat others.
Don't cheat life.
And most importantly, don't fake it.

Happy Birthday jess, ps: you do realize you better work your ass off these next few years. The real world's a bitch.

give me something to believe in.

Sometimes I regret not going to school in nyc. Especially when it comes to some great only in New York experiences. --fashion department internship at Interview magazine... or Cosmopolitan? Wow. Seriously, I've built my door of opportunities, I'm just thousands of miles away from the building.

In these past few days, I've managed to do exceptionaly well on my Rutgers statistics midterm, make a record amount in commission at Nordstrom and be on Lehigh's dean's list for the spring 07 semester. Life is looking good despite the fact that I've scumbled to my own demons. But that's more than you need to know.

If I can make it there, I'm gonna make it anywhere.

you and me could change the world.

This whole thing about me getting a job and taking courses is not turning out as smoothly as I originally planned. But I'm not going to bitch about that nonsense.

Nordstrom is fun, commission based sales is a bitch yet quite exciting. I'd rather do personal shopping but I have already started to lease my talents out... $20/hour and I'll revamp your entire wardrobe or find the perfect ensemble for you to wear to somewhere ~*fancy*~!

Social life is keep-keepkeeping alive... hah I barely have anytime to relax, let alone see anyone but I'm getting there. My loverly ki, sm, and others this past weekend. It was fun. And obvi the daily sex & the city gang. Okies that will do... I'm way to bothered to actually upload/post pictures.

Lazy.

ps: Oh and it kinda bugs me that Lily Allen thinks she's ugly/not pretty. Yeah, just bugs me a litle bit...

pps: Shameless promotion, JUNE 6 = Nordstrom Women + Children sale. GO GO GO!

could I take you for a car ride?

So I wake up today at 6:15pm ish, check email, and my lehigh course has been moved to 8-9am or pm. WTF, is there no solidarity for scheduling? I already planned my entire summer schedule/work and whatever based upon the dates/times I was given. I hate last minute changes. I'm way too overly anal/ocd about that stuff.

Friday was hs prom + that whole deboggle. I'm basically stalking fb/untag. I have a feeling my summer is gonna suck. Minus the fact that I'll be buying a new chanel or balenciaga. And I'm def getting the mbmj wrislet in the post below. It's just sitting at Nordstroms waiting for me to buy it. Hopefully, it'll go on sale? Oh my god. BEAUTIFUL.

I start my 3 day training tomorrow. I need to call to find out how I exactly get inside. The mall opens at 10, but I have to be there at 8am.

I need to get a haircut. Getting way too long, I want to either dye it dark brown or jet black almost blue.

ps: Grey's Anatomy sucks now. But, holy crap Sandra Oh can act.

we're planning on showing off our dresses.

Mother's Day was fun. Don't remember much, went to a buffet, it was packed. I really don't get the point of buffets... is it really necessary for oneself to stuff themselves full to the point of rediculousness for 20 bucks a pop? REALLY? I'm not a fan, but the froyo was pretty great.

Had my first job interview earlier today at Nordstrom. I wanted to work in the collectors department (D&G, Just Cavalli, Missoni), but they're not hiring and they're all full year. Sucks. BP is quite competitive and I have a shot. I don't want to see 2398479 spoiled middle/high school girls. Or clean up dressing rooms/fold clothes.

Anyways, it's a 3 part process and I have an interview tomorrow w/ the head of Accessories. I'll prob most likely end up there. Though just for the record, I'm a little disappointed because I think Nordstrom's handbag department is quite dismal, on-line is much better.

A little part of me is kind of regretting that I didn't apply to either Saks or Neimans. Higher-end would be more suitable, career wise. Oh well, there's always next summer?