i don't understand why you would wanna bring me down.

Okay I'm going to admit it. I've been watching the Lohan clan in Living Lohan. First of all, the most recent episode... does Ali seriously carry a Chanel Medallion Tote to high school and not expect people to ridicule her? A little naive, don't you think?

But regardless, I think doing the show was a good idea. Whether Dina Lohan's parenting is actually like that when the cameras aren't in her face... that's besides the point. She's a good mom and their family dynamic is very strong and I think she's doing a good job.

Okay, with that said. Go to the bloomingdale's private sale!! It's amazing.

spock rocker with your dirty eyes.

For you guys who can't get enough Chanel. Lindsay Lohan, Nicky Hilton among others have been spotted wearing the Neon Pink Stretch Spirit Flats ($675). Currently they're on sale for 40% off at Chanel Boutiques nationwide. And on June 9, Saks will discount these babies 33% on top of the already discounted price. They come in patent lime green, patent black, gold, black and other colors.

up in the gym just working on my fitness.

I've always found it so interesting to ask why and when people started their bad habits. That said, I'm referring more specifically to smoking cigarettes. I remember sitting in fifth grade and having Officer Bob come in for those D.A.R.E programs... you know how it goes.

Say no to drugs.
Smoking kills.
Cocaine is bad.
Don't smoke pot.

But D.A.R.E. was a great first plunge into the "badness" of drugs. I think there should always be public funding for that program because it's good. I mean, I obviously can't argue the fact that smoking cigs are bad. But there's that superiority complex that I (and most people) have. "Oh, yes I smoke, but I'm not addicted!" And this brings me up to the funny and oh-so-lame story about why/when I started smoking.

I went to California for Spring Break, went to a club, saw some really badass looking people smoking. I mean, everyone who is anything smoked. These people where wearing pink tights, Milly tops, and carrying Chanel bags. That was the ~allure~ like a social status. Holding a Marlboro Light in between your index and middle finger, slowing moving it towards your mouth, inhaling, moving your hand, and exhaling. It's just such a sensual movement. And so classy.

Many people are surprised when they see me light up.
I consider myself a social smoker. You know, someone offers me a cig, I accept and smoke with them. I keep a pack on me nowadays, but I never smoke by myself. I mean, it took me a year to actually buy a pack for myself.

So when I smoke, I know that I'm doing something really bad for myself, but again, that complex just kicks in. "I'm not addicted. I'm a social smoker. I have will power so I won't be one of those people who smokes a pack a day. It's for fun. I just like the feel of it." All of which seem like pretty big flags for someone who is addicted. But, honestly, I'm not addicted to the nicotine just the appeal that I think it brings.

And that thing, that thing that I've scumbled to is the main thing to which I believe despite D.A.R.E.'s great presence in schools today, there's still a huge flaw. Teenage smoking is increasing in prevailing numbers. What's wrong with those D.A.R.E programs is that they aren't there to tell you that you don't or you won't feel just "that much cooler" by smoking a cigarette.

Sure it's bad, but what business gets done over eating a stick of celery?

meet me where 8th and ocean cross.

Can I even begin to digest no pun intended how much has happened in just 4 weeks? Sorry for the long hiatus, I've been too busyLAZY! You can thank me throwing up this entire morning for actually signing onto my laptop. But I've been meaning to update... you know when something occurs and all you think is, "Where's my wireless connection? I need to put this incredibly wise, head scratcher post up."

I've gone to thinking that all this "fashion is what defines you/find your own style blahblah" … all that Vogue and TeenCosmo "style on a budget" concept that any girl can have is a load of bs. Honestly, how can an 18 year old find any practicality in fashion let alone finding your personal style? No to Abercrombie tops and Bebe capris. Maybe I'm overlooking something major and this is all just a mistake, but how can I manage to find my style and actually execute and put it together when something I want for my look is a 200 plus Marc by Marc Jacobs blouse? Yes, I'll admit, maybe it has something to do with brand snobbery, but regardless, it's your own style. And most likely, your parent's money.

Now, my whole practicality argument. Fashion for me is just not practical. Style on a budget is impossible. And, I'm not saying that I want to fill my closets up with Chanel and Phillip Lim. But it's just so hypocritical to say that to be stylish, you've got to shell out so much money. I yearn for a pair of boots that cost 290 only to which I can’t wear in college because it will be a bitch to walk to class in and even so, going out on weekends is a no-no because no one would dare wear Blahniks to a college frat party.

So where am I stuck?

could I take you for a car ride?

So I wake up today at 6:15pm ish, check email, and my lehigh course has been moved to 8-9am or pm. WTF, is there no solidarity for scheduling? I already planned my entire summer schedule/work and whatever based upon the dates/times I was given. I hate last minute changes. I'm way too overly anal/ocd about that stuff.

Friday was hs prom + that whole deboggle. I'm basically stalking fb/untag. I have a feeling my summer is gonna suck. Minus the fact that I'll be buying a new chanel or balenciaga. And I'm def getting the mbmj wrislet in the post below. It's just sitting at Nordstroms waiting for me to buy it. Hopefully, it'll go on sale? Oh my god. BEAUTIFUL.

I start my 3 day training tomorrow. I need to call to find out how I exactly get inside. The mall opens at 10, but I have to be there at 8am.

I need to get a haircut. Getting way too long, I want to either dye it dark brown or jet black almost blue.

ps: Grey's Anatomy sucks now. But, holy crap Sandra Oh can act.

send me some guidance from above.

RIP The O.C.
2003-2007

Why I'm going to miss this show:

• People are always going to talk, you might as well give 'em something good to talk about. - Hands down, the best lesson I've ever learned.
• Seth Cohen - I will be comparing boys to you for the rest of my life.
• Mischa Barton's 3234 Chanel bags
• Seth + Summer / Rachel + Adam - Let's really not get started to how obsessed I am with these two. Alteast they end up together in fiction.
  
• The time when Summer's on the yacht and realizes that she likes Seth.
• Summer saying "Ew!"
• California here we come, right back where we started from.