so let's get a closer now.

If there is one thing I've learned this year (most esp these past few months)... it's that life is too short to be unhappy. With circumstances beyond my control, I think I've managed to make myself think the worst in every person and/or situation I come across. I'm guilty of continuously over-analyzing people and situations. I come to conclusions about people I barely know. I have this problem with letting people get close to me. I just assume they have the worst intentions. I'm fairly distant and I just hate change.

That said.

I've always tried to live my life based on "being chill and laid back" and going with the flow, etcetc. And always keeping in clear view my morals, priorities, and future aspirations. Lately, it seems as if I've lost sight on that and I've fallen guilty to having a really shitty thought process. It was to the extent of which I thought everything was a joke. Ugh, I have to stop being a fucking spoiled princess.

Dear 2008,
I'm going to be happy.
Sincerely,
Me

and another chance to make it right.

I've missed you all? hah. I doubt anyone's reads this anyway except passerby-ers? Let's just say I've been busy/lazy. But, for those who know me, something has terribly gone wrong. I haven't been in ANY MOOD to go shopping. I just don't want to for some reason? I don't want to buy anything, but I know I'm in a desperate need for a new wardrobe. Fucked up, I know.

Anyway, I've been defunked into the most not normal sleeping patterns this whole break. I basically go to sleep at 5 in the morning, and wake up a little before 6pm. 4pm if I'm lucky. I have officially become nocturnal. And, also, what's up with the no snow lately? I haven't even been able to wear my sweet boots that I brought for the snowy weather.

Here's to a New Year!